this maybe the last post i goin to blog...

sry wendy for not tellin u anything.. in fact why when i see him i get tao even i myself also dunno why does this happen perhaps is bcos of sum probs i realise sth i should not and i nv should have which is i hav sum sort of fallin in for u i think this is the main reason when i see him i become tat way... i have been tellin myself u got stead le.. but when i see him i start to think of u... think of the tym when we went out as kor and mei happy happy... and so on... i think everything is over le... at here i wanna say sry to u mei... i tel myself to settle this in 3 days startin from now... so should not be a prob... i hope i wil be the old steve...

Sadz!~

2008-01-14T15:35:00.000+08:00

What Tan Shi An Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Dun ask me why but u have to believe in this cos i am this kind of person but dun totally believe in it as some part of it is not true...

Sadz!~

2008-01-10T12:28:00.000+08:00

09/01/08

09/10/07
Finally I have done wat I promise Juliana de thing liao… her video is already done and I have blog it in the previous post… haha… hmmm bout today… woke up 10am today den meet Zhen Yuan at mac at 11am to do the video… and now is 5pm liao and I have finish the video now wait for Candy, Isabel and Veronica to come… as I nid to help them fill in the CARE volunteer data form… yup…. Yawns they so slow sia… I also a bit sian diao… my mother called me jus now askin me to go work as my younger brother is having high fever so wan me to go help first den 9pm lyk tat she go liao den I go hm… yup… haix sianx and slpy ah…. Hope the girls can reach faster…

10/10/07
One more sian day to go…haix…. Now in the train on my way to skool to do the banner thing for jess… haha… yawnx… slpy and sianx… haix… k la end here for now first…

Went back home bout 5pm lyk tat… den go JEC take my nebo members card and slack down thr awhile… so sianx lor… den saw hui min thr playin her drum lolx… so qiao… she play until no mood play liao… lolx so funny lor… lol… nvm… den wendy came… but we din tok as we are in cold war now… so haix… all thanks to the misunderstanding… haix… we were fine before tat de… jus bcos of a little thing we end up lyk tat… suan le… hope we can get well again… and lyk b4… go out have fun… k la end here for today… oh ya…. Brought a 2^nd hand fone to be my stand by fone… haha… cost me 50 bucks… hai hao la… got colour sum mor lolx…. But the condition KNS… lol.. nvm… jus my stand by fone… my real fone is still my W850I…. muahahaha

11/10/07
Now on my way to skool again… haha… nid to go back skool return the SC Rm keys… as I close the SC Rm ytd so bo bian… den nid to go finish the banner still left a bit to touch on… woke up 9.45am today… cos my grandmother come… lolx…. Nvm… now in the train on my way to skool… SIAN AH…. Go skool continue the banner den slack awhile do my project den come back home…. Tmr nid to go work again…. Sianx…. Den sat and sun also same nid go work… yawnx I getting sian liao… work whole day work until I fed up onli get 20 bucks… fuck sia… the mor I think the mor I fed up sia… haix…. Suan le… FAMILY BUSINESS MAH… SUX…… haix… now at raffles place liao… lolx…. K la end here maybe update later…

As wat I say jus now… went to skool to do some touch on for the banner… finish damn early den slack a while in skool… after tat was invited by Su Hui ( P&C Chairman) to have a movie wif them at Plaza so I decided to go lor… den meet heng mun at Dhoby… den went to PS… watch the show Mr Woodcock… quite a nice show and was funny too… after the show slack a while at plaza jiu go hm liao…. But truth is I din go hm lolx… I went to arcade to play 6 rounds of maximum tune yup… haha… reach hm 8 liao… cos over shot station end up alight at bukit batok den take back to gombak again… yup… I think tat’s all le…

As for the show Mr Woodcock… its quite a lame show… thr is a guy I forget the name liao… he was a fat kid when he was young and woodcock is his basketball teacher at tat tym… and this teacher is very fierce as in if u can’t ans his qn or anything he wil ask u to do push-ups or even run 1 round… 13 years later tis guy came out wif a book and became famous he went overseas this and tat… and tis tym he decided to come back to find his mother and thr was a event going on… the event is called corn festival it is a festival all about corn… things lyk eating corns this and tat… yup… tat’s all I am goin to say the rest let u all go and watch urself

If I still continue den not nice liao… haha… rmb the show is call Mr Woodcock…

12/10/09
Countin down to ‘O’ lvl liao… its 17 more days… haix… haven even study… I GOIN CRAZY LIAO… haix… now at coffee shop slacking… nth to do lor… so sianx…

ARGG… I goin crazy liao… I very de very de slpy lor… arggg… somemore I nid to stay till 11pm… argg… sian ah… tot den can go internet den can chat on msn den do my project den now end up can’t even find the stupid wireless… haix… sian diao lor… haix… suan le… k la end here for today I wan go slp liao… yawnx…

13/10/07
Kids are always kids… they are so playful and they dun have stress or anything… so gd lor…. Now in the train on my way to orchard to do some stuff… den in the train got 2 small kids wif the age of bout 3 to 5 playing around in the carbine runnin here and thr… lyk very fun lyk tat… lolx… they jus dunno the meaning of dangerous… haix can’t blame they are jus small kids… haha… so sianx sia… now also dunno whr am I liao… haha… the onli thing I noe is I am freezing bery de cold… yawnx and slpy too… haha…

Reach coffee shop at 5… sianx… today no ppl de… haix… nvm… den went to JEC… now den come back to coffee shop… went thr slack slack… go arcade play one round of initial d den buy popcorn jiu go liao… yawnx… slpy slpy slpy… now is 9.15 still got a long way to go…

14/10/07
HAPPY 17^TH BIRTHDAY TO ISABELLA…

Haix… really sick le… sianx…. Now at coffee shop slacking… haha… waiting for my mother to come den 8pm jiu can go hm liao… haha… very de slpy…. Keep yawnin yawnin yawnin… haix…

15/20/07
First day of skool jiu miss lesson liao… see I so pro… lolx… kiddin… quite sianx… and stress… cos exam is end of this month and I haven study yet… haix…. Now in class slacking awhile haha… my new time table sucks man… all change liao… sian sia…. Haix… but lucky TMR NO SKOOL… I CAN GO OUT LIAO… haha… wan to go whr nia? Hmmm… dunno le… haix… hope got ppl pei me… =)…

Yeah… got ppl pei me tmr liao… hahaha… so gd lor… but 5 plus jiu nid go hm liao….

Sadz!~

2007-10-09T16:15:00.000+08:00

Our Dearest Juliana Ong Si Pei...

Sadz!~

2007-10-06T13:37:00.000+08:00

21/09/07
Woke up 6.30am today… cos meeting belle 6.50 to have breakfast… lolx… quite bored today… reach skool 8.30 liao… den now having CMS till 12.30 afternoon got community meeting, sc meeting and sc outing thank god my schedule is so tight… den tmr got well-being outing… haix.. nvm… now having lesson so sianx.. k la end here maybe update later…

Went for community meeting… meeting start 1.45… so sianx la… nvm… after community meeting is General Meeting… meeting end 4.45 was meeting about a few thing lyk the next batch of exco… anyway congratulate Jeffery, Veera and Jessica for being up to the top 3 of Student Council… wish u 3 all the best in wat ever things u all do in life… and hope u all will get into the position u all wan too…

After GM we went to gaylang for the bazaar was having dinner wif the malays wish quite a fun night thr but sad to say as I nid to go early cos I nid to rush down to orchard to get the ticket for well-being outing the nxt day… yup… hmmm k la I think I end here ba…

22/09/07
Woke up 9am today… Went to orchard cine leisure to watch movie… we watch UnderDog… haha… was quite a lame show but its funny and nice u all should go and watch it… hee… movie finish 4.30… den meet rudy and slack at orchard awhile… den we walk down to PS to slack… haha… till bout 6 den I nid to go liao…

Rush down to coffee shop as my father is not in SG so I have to go… now is 12.34am… and I jus reach home not long onli… so slpy lor… yawnx… hmmm k la I think I shall end here for today ba… tmr still nid work… haix… SIANX….

23/09/07
Woke up 12.30pm should say woke up 11.30 cos min call me… lolx… nvm… now at home… sianx… now is 10pm liao… jus reach home not long… yup… tmr work 8am… yawnx… but good thing bout tmr is work 8am finish work 5pm.. haha… hmmm I think this few weeks de post will be very little cos everyday is work so no much can post… yup… k la end here…

24/09/07
To my dear uncle… god will bless u where ever u go even ur nxt life…

woke up 6.30 and went to coffee shop… receive a call from my grandmother saying tat my uncle has left us early this morning bout 5+… sad to hear tat but I can’t do anything also… work work work… till bout 1.10 when jun wei msg me and ask me go bugis meet them for group study… reach bugis 2pm liao… study a while 4pm come back coffee shop work again… lolx… den my mother called me saying tat she is sick den end up I work til 11pm… sianx… from morning til night… pro sia… now damn slpy… now is 1.11am… yawnx… tmr work 8am again… so ALL THE BEST TO ME…

25/09/07
Woke up 9am today… quite late… cos alarm sounded at 6.30 but I really very tired so I slp back again… den end up 9 am my supervisor called and ask me to go coffee shop… lolx… nvm… hmmm quite tired today… same as ytd from morning til night… lolx… hope I can wake up tmr ba…

2007-03-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

yawnz.. this few days soooo tired... this week end din do anything at all... all i do is slp, slp and slp... yawnz... hmmm change my hp no. BCOS OF FAMILY MATTERS den now using top up card... haiz den used to fast liao now no $$ inside.. cannot sms liao... nvm tmr den top up hee... hmmm alot of things happen this wk... lyk friday we was ask to go register for the 'O' lvl maths... as i am goin to take 'O' lvl maths this yr hee very lame ryt ITE should be

IT'S THE END but instead of IT'S THE END... ITE let us take 'O' lvl maths and eng and this yr i taking 'O' lvl maths first den maybe nxt yr 'O' lvl eng.. hmm see first ba... hee hmmm this wk really alot of things happen... but i think i wan to say it le... hmm lets stop here ba... hmmm to all of u hu say i always nv update i will try to update every single week and its either on sat or sun i will try my best to update.. k for now bye all update nxt wk... bye bye...

rmb this:

只要笑一笑没什么事情过不了 =)

Sads~

2007-03-04T20:54:00.000+08:00

yawnz.. so sianz... friday is a bad bad day for me... one of my sec fren called me... she ask me not to disturb her anymore... =.= i ask her wat did i do she say things lik her stead is shy type guy y i go add him in frenzter and msn... i was kind of LAME..... den is lik she is thinking tat i wan to break the two of them up... =.= pls lor i already have stead lor.... i break the two of them up for wat... lame ryt...... really dun noe wat is she thinking... haiz nvm... lets end here for friday...

saturday(3/3/07):
btw i am suppose to go to visit my tuition teacher de.. but end up cancel THX TO ALL MY FRENZ... all last min tell me cannot go say wat got work, got CIP got this got tat... haiz so i got no choice but to call my tuition teacher and tell her we not goin le.. den evening tat tym i went to my mother's fren hse for "buffet" dinner... i dun jus go thr to eat i go thr to gamble wif adults =.= haha but i win $$ from them HAHA so shiok... haha... hmmm i think tat's all le ba...

lets continue for today...

hmmm today dun noe why i am damn damn damn tired keep on feel lik slpin... nvm afternoon (1pm) i went to my mother's another fren hse...(my mother got alot of fren hor... lolx) hmmm go thr eat buffet AGAIN... =.= nvm... den got thr gamble again... haha win adult $$ again haha... hmmm total up today and ytd i total win $19 onli... very little ryt... aiya enuf le la win so mus also no use... =.= haha came back hm for STEAMBOAT haha.. shiioooooooook.... haha... after steamboat still got "yu shen" haha hmmmm this yr i already lao 5 tyms le... i lao till i sian liao... but no choice still hav to lao... haha... hmmm i think tat's all for this 3 days le... hmmm hope tmr will be a good day... haha

EVERYDAY IS A BRAND NEW DAY, NEW ADVENTURE, NEW FUN!~ HAHA!~
只要笑一笑没什么事情过不了 =)

Sadz!~

2007-02-14T08:40:00.000+08:00

its valentine day today... i wish all the couples a happy valentine day today...

as for me still dun noe wat to do...anyway we have patch back already but to me patching back or not is still the same... i feel tat we r not lik b4 we have change... today i am goin out wif her... dun noe wat kind of things will happen... and i dun noe should i be happy or sad... and i dun noe should i go out wif her or should i go hm... can anyone tell me is my decision correct??

sadz!~

2007-02-07T09:15:00.000+08:00

ytd i quarrel wif her.... since we start our relationship 1 yr 17 days ago, its the first tym i quarrel wif her... she say tat i din give her enuf attention.. i was quite tired at tat tym bcos of some prob in my sec skool things and my lastest proposal for interschool basketball is not accepted yet... and at night i jus wish tat she can tok to me but end up she told me tat i din gav her attention.... i was kind of fed up... i told her i feel tat we have change i feel tat she has change too... i jus feel tat our relationship has begin to crack... i feel tat we r no longer understandin each other... she told me tat she wan more attention from me... i ask her back... "have u ever gave me ur attention?" she din ans me... i really very stress and tired at tat tym... i feel tat she has change alot... correct goin out wif her and her fren coming along i dun mind but its not the matter of her fren following or not is tat she give more attention to her fren instead... i really feel stress le... i nid some rest for tym being... i told her i think we nid some rest first... (i promise i will get back to u a few more days later...)

HEART BROKEN!~

Sads~

2007-01-26T20:11:00.000+08:00

hi ju... its been 1month plus le... haha.. hope u din suffer thr...

as for me...

haiz ite sucks... so call been sian since skool reopen... tot tat i got a fren to tok to now it looks lik its lik the life i had is sec skool NO FRENS AT ALL...

but gd tat i got sum frenz now.. CRAZY GUYS... everyday toking about GERS... see pretty gers onli 2 of them go crazy liao.... =.=... hmmm since skool reopen alot of things happen... things lik: i volunteer to be a class rap but end up the class dun accept... den now is a ger being a class rap(jiekie) hmmm can say this job sults her la... den assi class rap is a guy(benjamin)... den treasurer is also a ger(gladys)... hmmm all three is very responsible de.. (really i can't "fight" with them) they r really very responsible... hmmm as for me now... i join a CCA Bridge Leader... hmmm most is about being a leader ba... hmmm i think i should end here le...

Bye all... Take Cares!~

sign!~(3/12/06)

2006-12-03T10:31:00.000+08:00

To:Juliana ong si pei...

Ju... its 6 days already... i still can't believe tat u r gone... i think xuan they all feel the same way as me... u r gone so suddenly... i felt tat it is jus ytd... anyway i will visit u when i am free...

GOD WILL BLESS U....

sign!~(29/11/06)

2006-11-29T20:27:00.000+08:00

Juliana ong si pei, left this world on 27/11/2006.
A 14 yr old girl is gone like tat... i was shock when i heard this news ytd nite from my teacher... ytd evening 6.09pm one of my teacher called me i was working so i told my teacher i am bz... she ask me to call her back when i am free i did not call back because i was working till 8.30pm... at 8pm my teacher called again i answered her phone call and she told me "Ur junior juliana has left us" I was shock and of cos sad... juliana is a good girl she is quiet, caring and kind she like to help ppl too... rmb tat time the amazing race for lakeside primary skool she was there, happily playing wif the pri skool kids... she also teaches the lakeside pri kids in their maths, eng and chinese... she really leave a very good impression in swiss cottage.. 3 days before she is gone... we was having a amazing race in swiss cottage for open hse... she was very happy at tat tym... playing the games wif the kids, getting kids to play the games and so on... hu noes... its onli 2 days i heard tat she is gone... really very sad...
today i went to pay her my last visit she was lying peacefully thr i nearly cried when i saw her.. but i told myself no matter wat i must stay focus i cannot cry... after tat we went back to skool when we was ask to discuss wat we feel after we saw our dear fren lying thr tat is when i started crying... she was jus a 14 yr old girl and she have left us... no matter wat i hope she have a great life in another world too... JULIANA... GOD WILL BLESS U...

sign!~(12/11/06)

2006-11-12T10:28:00.000+08:00

work for 2 weeks le... my life thr also starting to be alone same lik in skool no fren no nothing... went there 2nd day got 1 ah pek say i not happy wif him liao... pls lor i was sick tat day.... after 2 days lik tat jiu ok liao... den ytd a bunch of RS idiot from kranji sec one at thr act big... i onli say the box u all stack lik tat sure will fall one den one of them not happy liao still one play one on one... haiz pathetic idiot... here is working place not fighting place... wan fight come lor... venue at police station tym u choose... how... BHB.... lolx... k la should stop here liao...bye all...

sign~ (30/10/06)

2006-10-30T06:49:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... first day of work today... dun noe wat will happen sia... hope dun get scoldin from boss... haha... hmmmm wish me luck... tell u all more tonite... anyway now is 6.45am haha...

sign~(24/10/06)

2006-10-25T16:21:00.000+08:00

wa... so shiok man... ytd went for the hype up concert haha... so cool... alot of the singapore idol is thr... thr is... taufiq, jonathan, olinda and many more... the whole indoor stadium really goin blow le... everyone shoutin lik siao lik tat... den the stupid speaker damn loud.... my ears drum goin blow le... lol... but its a very gd concert... and its worth to go and enjoy ur nite... nxt yr if got chance i still will go de... hmmm took some of the video... those interested can tell me i send u haha... but say first its sucks cos the sound too loud liao...

hmmm finish at about 10.30pm den got bus send until jurong east but nid to pay $1... delay this and tat... reach jurong east at 11.30 le... den faster go take mrt back to gombak... reach about 12 le... den stay at the CC thr chit chat wif my fren until 1 den go hm.. haha.... stupid rite...

sign~ (18/10/06)

2006-10-18T12:29:00.000+08:00

Hmmm lets see whr i start from... hmmmmm...... lets start from ytd ba...

Ytd to sian... Afternoon went to skool for a small meeting wif my CARE teacher, after tat heard sumting bad about one of my "brother"... felt very shock... hope he is ok... after tat we continue our "meeting" or maybe i can say we was toking rubbish... HAHA!~ after tat "meeting"... my teacher was marking sum journals from the technical classes so i help her lor... see i so guai... haha... den read sum of the journals... got relationship got this got tat... can't believe a Sec2 kid got relationship prob... sum more my another teacher write..." i noe u in class keep thinking of girlfriend" lolx.... really can't believe... after everything i went home lor... reach home about 6.30 le... and jus lik tat my whole afternoon "clear" le...

hmmm as for today...
Jus woke up not long... den today nid to hand in 2 proposals one is about amazing race in my skool another is about amazing race for LakeSide Primary... den now doin the two proposals... stupid sia... i open the files den dun noe wat to write... =.="' haiz now doin nothing at all... wan to find ppl chat no ppl online... Haiz... k la i stop here la... (THOSE WHO SAY I NV WRITE BLOG DE... NOW I WRITE SO MANY HAPPY ALREADY???~)

sign~ (18/10/06)

2006-10-18T12:27:00.000+08:00

Haiz, life really so sianz.... nid to do this do tat... haiz

sign~(24/9/06)

2006-09-24T11:17:00.000+08:00

Haiz life is so bored sumtyms... friday i went for interview at the popular building... hmmm can say its a success... jus tat mus see do i nid to go back to skool or not if i nid to go back to skool and its alot of days den they will not hired me as i will not be working for too many days they worry tat when they nid ppl they can't find ppl..

After the interview i went out wif desmond and his fren yuan wei...we go to westmall to have our so call "lunch"... but not long after we reach another 2 person came, at first i dun really noe hu they r... after tat den i noe they r frens of desmond... anyway i feel extra thr... all from hill grove i the onli 1 from swiss cottage... after we finish out lunch we went to arcade to play play haha... i go thr also nv play much... cos is desmond play mah haha tats why nv play much... anyway i also dun feel lik playing de...cos i got no $$ liao... sob... i feel lik goin home but i see them at thr so jus pei them a little lor...

hmmm i think its tym to go le... bye all haha....

sign~(15/9/06)

2006-09-15T16:52:00.000+08:00

Ytd, we have a IMPACT club handover ceremony in skool... Its a ceremony of us the Sec 4 EXCO members (the 5 of us) to step down...

It was quite sad after 1 spend so much tym in skool writing proposal and so on... It has finally come to the end... Hmmm... Really feel sad... Dun feel like stepping down I really lik this job even though it is tough and nid to think so much but I still lik it I dun mind it is tough as long as it stop me from thinking stupid things i happy le...

sign~ (13.09.06)

2006-09-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

1 Month pass le... we have not meet for 1 month le.. everyday thinking of her... but still the same...
4 more yrs to go in order for us to really stead together... haix... everyday have a stupid feeling... feel tat she has a guy she lik thr... i really dun noe wat to do... feel so sleepy and tired of everything haiz...

sign~(22/8/06)

2006-08-22T20:13:00.000+08:00

wat a boring day today... nth to do at all... today in skool during assembly time mr seng tok to us about bullying and after tat i think i am been bully by the class also... it happen i think last week ba... my class dunno how they found out tat my fren is from jurong point's gang... den they mistook it as i am from jurong point gang... den no matter how i say they dun believe... till now every single day... does this count as bully i also dun noe... but the onli thing i noe is i am already fed up and i am lazy to tok back to them le... Can anyone teach me wat to do nxt?

In the afternoon i went to impact club they was having a discussion but i dun even bother... not long after it about 3pm we was having training at the library its about the academic teaching for lakeside pri skool... this is our 2nd time thr... but too bad i can't go bcos of my 'n' lvl ='( but nvm... xi guan le... it end about 4.15pm den we went back to the club hse... to have a stamp on the privilige card... about 4.30pm we was ask to leave as the youth teachers are goin to have a meeting...

sign~(12/7/06)

2006-07-12T19:29:00.000+08:00

PLS UNDERSTAND FOR ROY IS SPECIAL... ROY ASK ME FOR 100 PUSH UPS... NOT MY FAULT... WHY CAN'T U PPL UNDERSTAND... I DID NOT GIV HIM SO MUCH PUSH UPS... MY BBALL PLAYERS PLS TAG AND HELP ME CLEAR THIS...

sign~(11/7/06)

2006-07-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

Today i have my 'n' lvl oral exam... i nearly fail... maybe was too scared or wat... after tat went to impact club... toking all such rubbish... when it about to finish... i tok about the bball match we going to hav on 3rd of august... i got fed up at tat time bcos of wat taufiq(one of my care teacher) says... he say: can u not giv them push ups? cos puch ups i think is punishing them... I say ok fine...
He is my teacher i can't say anything about rejecting wat...
can anyone tell me whr got training no push ups de... den btw thr is trainin tmr and yet he cancel it wifout me noeing... i am really fed up by den... and now since he is soooooo smart den go on he will train the players den... i giv up... and anyway i did not giv them push ups and i stand down thr c or wat i m doin wif them also... so wat i am a couch... i do everything they did... except for one of the player roy, he say he wans to do 100 push ups... i still ask him confirm or not he say ya... ok fine i giv him do... i did not even ask him to do all i break to 20, 20, 30, 30... den now wat... as if its i wan him to do lik tat... PLS IT IS NOT MY FAULT LOR... i did not force him to do lor...

sign~ (09.07.06)

2006-07-09T01:49:00.000+08:00

CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHY IS MY LIFE SO SUCKS...

i really have enuf... everything is my fault... no matter wat i do is always wrong... everything is jus keep happen to me... and all the gd things is 4 others... it is SUCKS... i really hate this feeling... can anyone tell me wat should i do... or should i jus end my life instead... i think i really nid a long long break... i really have enuf le... ppl u all may say living in this world is wonderful... but y to me it is so sucks... hu can tell me wat should i do?

as for relationship hu can tell me how to make a relationship perfect... i really dun noe how to do it...
at here i wish to say sry to u ashley... i dun noe wat am i doin... i am avoiding u everyday for wat reason? i dun noe... maybe we r not suppose to be together... or maybe thr is a better guy den me around u... if thr is tat lucky guy... pls leave me and go...

30/6/06

2006-06-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

Haiz... sec skool life sucks... its boring... everyday is jus boring n sian... today ask the class about a bball match wif east spring n st gabriel sec all dun even bother to listen... damn wat a nice class i hav for the past 4 yrs... haiz..

hmmm 'n' lvl exam not far away... my target is to go NA... Can i do it??? even i myself also dun noe e ans... haiz...

Sumtimes i ask myself am i suppose to be in this world? if yes, wat am i here 4?
Can anyone tell me... PLS... i really very stress up...

pls leave a tag and tell me wat am i suppose to do...

18/12/05

2005-12-18T20:41:00.000+08:00

Haiz wat a boring day today.... all my family went to malaysia onli i alone at home.... soooo sian.... yesterday, i went to a x-mas party organise by CARE and sponser by M1... it was ok lots of games tat can win prizes.... the girls did enjoy themselves.... getting big presents and so on.... for me.... i keep getting all the small presents haiz... nvm... xi guan le.... den i went to IMM wif the girls.... they went daiso and buy girls item.... after tat we go eat long john.... we went home about 5.30pm like tat.... hmmm its fun yesterday.... but fun times ends very fast....

Today, woke up at about 12... den on the com play maple story... now writing blog.... nth to do at all... haiz life really very boring.... feel like doin sth tat make me feel great.... HAHA.... kidding onli la.... hmmmm lets end here ba.... hope u all enjoy ur day today.... bye... :P...

04/12/05

2005-12-18T20:38:00.000+08:00

haiz wat a boring day today... so boring and stress... how i wish i will be be stress jus 4 a day... hmmm today went out to work wif my father... so sian i nearly fall asleep... haha... lucky i did not if i really fall asleep i gonna get scolding... reach home about 7.... nth to do... den go and have a nap... jus wake up not long ago jus finish playing maple story... finally i am lvl 25... haha... took soooo long onli lvl 25... haiz...now so sian... den jus now someone msg me den make me suddenly feel very stress... say wat my god nu ers like gone missing like tat msg them don reply... when they are bored or sad den msg tat someone.... for me... everytime i msg them is lik i am msging the wall... always no reply de... haiz.... saying the truth i hav a little bad feeling now... like the girls are hurting themself or doin sth bad to themself... haiz... i really don wish to see them hurting themself.... haiz.... hmmm lets end here.... free den i write again... hee...

i wish upon the sky... to being loved by you...

life now...

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